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| life is going. music is my best friend. it helps me get through the days so much easier. nothing too exciting happening in my life. no more troubles with guys. that's a high. lows, this month is not being able to go to vegas. a fortune teller told my mama that we would crash in the desert, so now we are not going anymore. kinda lame i took the whole weekend off! so i feel like i should still go out of town, but i don't know where to go, and i'm not sure if the peeps are down. i mean i don't mind going to LA or something. i feel like i need this escape from fresno. i've had a hard month, well not really but more like a boring one. it would of been cool, cos the ufc fight rashad vs. rampage was in vegas and i could, if i wanted to of gone! boo. even though this is just an update and no one reads this, i think it's good for me. maybe i can finally learn to trust the world again and what i write public person blogs. who knows, yet. crazy.
okay, that is all for now.
live life, love life.
<3, nann
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| i need to work on my typing skills so i am gonna write a blog. it's been soooo long. i feel like i have this wall that stops me from saying what i really want to say, but sometimes i think that it is just because i get tired of talking or saying the same things. it gets old. and who really wants to hear about the mistakes you keep repeating, right? right. this time i around i guess it is a little different. i am trying to take the advice i get from people about those who aren't worth time in my life. and it is hard with some people. i guess i experienced a little bit of every emotion this year, so far. besides love. i cried, i smiled, i raged. and why because all the new people i've met and hung out in the last year are like friends i had a few years ago. kinda funny and ironic. it's like no matter how hard you try, the past just can't be the past. that or just don't be friends with new people around the age you were when you hurt so bad.
that's all for now...
<3
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| it's raining outside. it's suppose to rain the whole week.
the rain is so refreshing and so good for the air.
<3 the rain. it makes my heart smile.
& great music....VVV
i'm feeling a little of everything.
love, hate, regret, happiness, sadness, peace.
i don't know why i choose the paths i choose.
i think i know what i want and i end up doing all the wrong things.
i don't understand why i make the decisions i do.
do i really learn my lesson? apparently, i haven't.
it's so frustrating because i want to do what is better for me, but i don't.
i just end up letting myself get hurt.
i feel like my guard is up towards everyone it is not suppose to be.
it only took one broken heart, a lost friendship, and _blank_ to learn to forgive pain and hurt.
yet, i'm standing in the same situation.
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| fuck people. fuck gossip. fuck friends. fuck being there for someone.
it seems like no matter what i do, or who i am friends with, bad shit always happens to me.
communication is one of my biggest weaknesses. it's so hard for me to say things and not hurt someone.
and it is so hard to let someone say things that hurt you and you can't say anything back.
it's so hard being so passive and letting people step all over you.
i guess i am a target for asshole guys and mean girls.
it would be nice to be able to completely let someone go.
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| ugly. out of shape. liar. jealous. spiteful.
distracted. hateful. whore. in love. alone.
she meets someone new and knows he's not the one.
the last time is blurry but she remembers how amazing they were together.
she hates every new girl that enters his life.
can she really make him happy, completely?
she desperately wants to be with him.
he only wants her when he feels alone.
user. asshole. player. man whore.
she stays close by his side.
it would hurt too much to lose him.
best friends is better then no friend.
maybe one day he'll come around.
there's always HOPE, always.
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